5 posts tagged “life”
So I can go back lurking at my lovely neighbours <33
I really love you guys.
Like really...
*weeping out of missing my neighbours and a serious lack of Arashi dosage*
I just went for what, 2 weeks and I got Oh-chanXgirlfriend pictures. Arienai.
ありえないのは...超きれいだから *got bricked*
I swear I don`t mind leaving for a month or so if I can go back and find such happy pictures like that again :)
I watched Maou eps 1.
Toma is hot. I found him hot like I never did before. My Oh-chan`s ship is part instictual and part obligatory, but looking at Toma and want to see a porn video with him in it, I didn`t see it coming.
Everything happened so fast in this dorama, I`m glad I`ve watched Mawang before. You see, I`m slow.
I can`t approve Kobayashi. Sorry girl, maybe next time. And what`s with the female officer`s hairstyle? I can`t stop thinking about that ^^;
Overall, I like. But mostly because it got Oh-chan and Toma in it. But then again, sometimes dorama evolve to such a beautiful thing along time. I`ll wait.
Kaze no mukou e and Sho`s rapping and his black pasokon and his ruffled hair...
MARRY ME SO I CAN SEE YOUR RUFFLED HAIR FIRST THING EVERY MORNING <333
I will refrain from the net until the next 2 weeks. Let's say important things happened and I have to go without Arashi in every parts of my brain.
I'm sorry Oh-chan...
I`m currently watching Mawang and the beautiful beautiful siluet of Joon Ji Hoon (did I get the name right?). I usually don`t watch Korean dramas since a lot of it are only about love and how powerful love is and how love can destroy too and how everyone will do everything for love (or money), blah blah blah. Well, things that I don`t believe.
This one`s different. And I like it. And I need to see more Korean things like this (give me titles guys!).
I start to get turn off by usual Korean things when I met Koreanese in real life. Maybe accidentally I always befriend nice people, but they`re so much more interesting in real life. The girls are so so strong, the guys are funny and nothing like in the dramas.
My former Koreanese classmates are 2 boys and 1 girl and I wouldn`t mind marrying any of them.
They made me think, if Koreanese are this interesting, why was the only dramas that surround me are the sappy ones?
Anyway, I also want to watch `Into the Wild` (by Sean Penn), but haven`t got the courage to. Yet.
I mean, what must I do if I got so touched then take all my saving and go to another island or something?
Because human is tied by responsibility.
My one and only responsibility is to make myself happy. That I know.
But I`m no Howard Roark. I can still feel hurt if I didn`t make certain people happy.
Ah! Life!
Looks like I`m babbling again...
Blog is really something amazing. You won`t know how something that you wrote can touch other people.
A lot of things going on lately, I was forced to think about the future, was forced to admit my limitations, and even if until now I still running after my dream, I start to question myself is this what I really want? A thick mist of confusion people would have to deal with once in a while is surrounding me now.
Then I stumbled to this blog, while looking something for my assignments. Daunsingkong.blogspot.com.
This is a blog of an Indonesian woman who just recently had gone back to Jakarta from living in Tokyo for 5 years (completing master degree and working for about 2 years), she blogs in Indonesian and this particular post caught me :
“I`ve always want to be Ally McBeal. Have a cool job as a lawyer, a sophisticated office downtown with amazingly romantic night view, wearing sleek suits, buy a cup of starbucks before entering the building… every imagination about a cool career woman.
Well, I didn`t end up a lawyer, but what`s written in my business card was enough to put people in awe. Though I wasn`t sure whether they actually understand anything about my profession.
For the last 2 years, I am totally aware that my office is located at one of the hottest spot in Tokyo. Not to mention the night view, even the day view often made me dreamy.
Unfortunately, I don`t go to the office in suits, unless I had a meeting with client. My office let their employees wear casuals, and I found myself more comfortable in ordinary shirts than formal suits anyway. And I never bought starbucks or anything though the 10 minutes walk from the train station to my office includes passing 2 starbucks, 1 tullys, 2 doutor and some other cafes. The thing is, I can`t drink coffee. Even if I drink in the morning, I won`t be able to sleep that night. So I never drink one, or just bring the paper cup for style.
So, for the last 2 years, my lifestyle was close to Ally`s. I`m luckier, since I don`t have any love problem.
But human is basically insatiable… or rather I am insatiable…
I never thought my life as `cool` at all…
Behind my awe-inducing profession, behind that hotspot office, I am aware that I`m just another employee with salary that barely make ends meet for living in this metropolis, and I have to fight laziness every morning, especially when I know that I won`t talk in my mother tongue all day.
Few times I got emails asking how does it feel to work in Japan. For me, the answer is one : hard. Hard because I can`t express my feeling freely since I can`t use my mother tongue, hard because Japanese culture itself won`t let me express my feeling freely, hard because I had to give the best service with super polite language to the clients though they asked for the impossible, and above all : hard because my family is faraway…
A total of 5 years I had lived in Japan. Short, since I still can remember my first day stepping on Narita. Short, but had made me lost a lot of things. I wasn`t there when my youngest brother went to highschool and graduated, when my other brother graduated from college, to be told that my dad had undergone the surgery instead of will, when my mom got posted out of town for years, and when my family mourn together when earthquake shook Yogya…
Almost 6 years I lived in a dream. Ten years before, all of this was just an imagination. Same as everyone who read this blog now and desires to live abroad.
This dream world surely demand a lot of sacrifices…
And now, it`s time for me to go back to the real world…
To my homeland…
To start running after another dream…
And to fill the space that gone all this years, as a daughter, as a sister, as a woman, as a wife…”
Dream is something delusional sometimes. You see it sparkling with every beautiful colors in the world and then you run after it and you catch it and you live it and suddenly it`s a real world, not sparkling anymore. That`s why the most important part of a dream is the process of reaching it, that`s where the happiness lays. And to make your dream come true is another path towards happiness, since that`s when you`re supposed to start running after the next dream.
So I won`t complain, dear God (not in public, I mean).
Ps : Maan, I miss you and I will reply as soon as I`m not dead anymore. I have to go to Jakarta tomorrow, wish me luck! (luck is all I have now, hahahahaha)
I`M BAAAACK!!!!!!!!!
Erm, so… well, I love this account too much to lose it. So I guess commenting here and there and post once in a while won`t be too much trouble.
I had a very tranquil time this past 6 months. Everything felt so trivial yet so fulfilling. School is the same as always, I`m starting my final assignment now until at least May. I`m teaching Japanese for part time :
Here`s my students during one of the test
and… basically that`s it. Just doing everything in my pace.
計画はあるし、実現するつもりだし。とらなきゃいけない道が見えてきたけど、焦らずにいきたいと思う。確かめなきゃいけないこともまだ幾つかあるからさ。もうすぐ固まる気がするけど。
Aaaaand,
Maan-chan! I MADE IT!!!!!
I PASSED JLPT LEVEL 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Never thought I could pass this year. ^o^b
Have to say thanks to Sho-kun, since I stuffed myself with non-text KCE for Listening lesson.
That`s it for now, I hope everyone have a good week!!!!!
