2 posts tagged “friends”
I have to let go one of my best friends to Japan today. To pursue her dream. To prove to everyone that she can.
Since like a month ago, I did countless farewell parties with her. Everytime both of us have spare time we`ll go somewhere and claimed that was a farewell party. She leave tonight so I was practically stalking her phone the whole day, texting her like `where are you now?` and `have you eaten?` and calling her. She will board the plane in 1.5 hours so I just called for the last time since maybe now it`s the time for family and she won`t let me go to the airport(in Jakarta) anyway.
People usually take Tia for granted since she`s so nice and child-like and everyone judged her as a dependant person. She`s actually the type that naturally child-like outside, but if you look at her closely, you`ll understand how she would strive on her own until she can`t take it anymore and had to look for help. So much better than those people who put a brave mask but quickly turn to others the minute they meet an obstacle. I respect her for that.
She`s unbelievably nice, always ready to help, a good listener, a good person, an adorable and funny little sister.
My days with her were days of gossiping and talking about teachers and school and `Look at that cute one at nearby table! Not that one! Beside him!` ; of smells of sushi and maccha milkshake and our favourite donuts.
It`s quite amazing since we`re different in almost all aspects, for instance, she`s not even close to liking any Japanese music/dorama which defines me a lot. Our biggest commonalities are food and the fact that we like each other so much.
5 years is quite a long time. But it`s nothing compared to the time we`re going to spend together from now on. Because I have a hunch we`re going to stick together forever no matter where we are.
If it`s you, I know we will.
Am listening to Seaside Bye Bye.
Nagoya never felt this empty before.
I just send my two best friends who are going home.
Petya to Bulgaria and Antara to India.
If only I can tell you with words of how amazing they are.
How they changed my life, how they told me I`m in the right path.
They are two of the smartest girls I`ve ever met. But more than that, those two teached me a lot about being a free soul. About doing what you want and the f*** with other things, while taking responsibility of your choice.
My last trip to Kyoto with Petya broke something in me. I`ll never be the same again. And on the way home, talking about life and ourselves and the strength we need to face the future, I know these are the moments I`ll locked forever in my memory. I love you Petya. I really do. How many times had I said that?
The little things that stucked in my head. Watching Love Actually and Bridget Jones, and Howl`s Moving Castle. Talking about Jonathan Seagull, lingering inside Village Vanguard, hanami in Tsurumai Park, the breeze we felt while cruising Biwa Lake...
Petya and me used to call ourselves `one of us`. Of course Antara is `one of us` too.
Japan is precious to me like that.
I look around my room and there`s still mess everywhere despite of I kept saying will clean it since two months ago.
Maybe, just maybe, in my head I think, if I don`t clean it, I don`t have to go.
But Petya and Antara had left, and there`s a hole in my heart, and Nagoya felt so empty, and I have to move on.
Am going to start cleaning again...
" I don`t know if I can ever see you again T_T"
" We will. With some people I just know."
「take care of yourself..nd be in touch. またきっと会えるよ。love you...」