Bye bye

Am listening to Seaside Bye Bye.

Nagoya never felt this empty before.

I just send my two best friends who are going home.

Petya to Bulgaria and Antara to India.

If only I can tell you with words of how amazing they are.

How they changed my life, how they told me I`m in the right path.

They are two of the smartest girls I`ve ever met. But more than that, those two teached me a lot about being a free soul. About doing what you want and the f*** with other things, while taking responsibility of your choice.

My last trip to Kyoto with Petya broke something in me. I`ll never be the same again. And on the way home, talking about life and ourselves and the strength we need to face the future, I know these are the moments I`ll locked forever in my memory. I love you Petya. I really do. How many times had I said that?

The little things that stucked in my head. Watching Love Actually and Bridget Jones, and Howl`s Moving Castle. Talking about Jonathan Seagull, lingering inside Village Vanguard, hanami in Tsurumai Park, the breeze we felt while cruising Biwa Lake...

Petya and me used to call ourselves `one of us`. Of course Antara is `one of us` too.

Japan is precious to me like that.

I look around my room and there`s still mess everywhere despite of I kept saying will clean it since two months ago.

Maybe, just maybe, in my head I think, if I don`t clean it, I don`t have to go.

But Petya and Antara had left, and there`s a hole in my heart, and Nagoya felt so empty, and I have to move on.

Am going to start cleaning again...

" I don`t know if I can ever see you again T_T"

" We will. With some people I just know."

「take care of yourself..nd be in touch. またきっと会えるよ。love you...」